MY TAINTED SUMMER

No regrets.

2009-04-30T01:20:00.008+08:00

No regrets.

Time passes fast and May will come in no time. Sigh. What have I done over these past months? Grieve over the losses and running away from reality? Tsk. I prefer to live in my own world, my happy place, where everything runs at my preferred pace. [: Steamboaty at home with shabushabu meat, chicken, scallop and veges screams YAY. Got my parcel from my online shopping. Waiting for 3 more to come. Need to transfer money to Roy. Need to chase bloody billy for my money. Need to print photos!

I went for an interview at St James for cashier for extra income with Myra while Umbrella/Ang LiNa/Yvonne opted for bartender. Apparently, they got no empty slots for cashiers already. ): But catching up with both of them was sweeeeett. I miss the butter people. Caught 17 again, a pretty normal show. Georgina Spark from Gossip Girl acted in it too! [: I wanna watch Harry Potter! Bought a lot of art and crafts stuffs like pretty papers, foam fonts and stickers. Bought super glue instead of art glue! tsktsk. Yay. I am making pretty things for mum's day, isabel's day, kimmy's day and j's day. Whee.

Need help! Lost my digi cam's battery charger! How?! *pouts*

I know I am not very updated with chinese songs but this is very nice (and emo)!
and this made Desiree cried. Haha. (:

♥

Speak Mandarin Campaign

2009-04-25T19:08:00.002+08:00

Speak Mandarin Campaign.

Reason to have kids:

AMAZED (:

HIHI (:

2009-04-24T23:57:00.000+08:00

HIHI (:

*HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ALFRED SWEETHEART/MY LAOGONG!*
*MISS YOU!*

Sabrina is now working as a part-time clinic assistant. I dread working. Job scope: registering patients, dispensing medications, doing follow ups, packing, booking appointments, getting confused and screaming for HELP every 2 minutes. Tsk. I know it's all about slacking but all my colleagues are so proud, they didn't allow me to use my hello kitty pen and denied me my chance of learning. ): I want my perfect job.

Work timing are pretty relaxing so I still get to hang out with humans (read: Bird, Kim, Daws & Eric). It was suppose to be ice skating after exploring Tampiness but it dragged, so no ice skating! Kimmy brought me around the 3 malls in tampiness: Century Square, Tampiness mall and Tampiness One. All cool and filled, why isn't Yishun like that? *pouts* No more writing to J in foolscap and grey envelopes because I bought very cutie letter pads for me to write in. See, I am not heartless at all. Didn't manage to find my Escada Moon Sparkle, it's a 2 year limited ed perfume, not coming out anymore. Can someone please help me!! Korean food at East Coast and then slacking at Geylang with co. HIHI!, five-ten & people watching. (:

Another wall in the room got painted PINK!
when in white:

when in pink:

This is my stupid horrible looking nape piercing after I took the stud out. Haha. As expected, my skin rejected. It's so dark and awful now. I am praying it can heal faster so I can get inked! (: Desiree girl is helping me do the contacting with her friend. This will be the first, and because I am such a chicken, scared. Gonna do a "star of David" but I am open to suggestions. Please do not say its so common, *roll eyes*, because its the most common thing I have heard.

my mum was so funny today. I replied her thanks when she texted to tell me that my wall is pink, she mopped my room and washed my bed sheets. she replied 'hahaha. you are welcome'. tsk. my mum is so cranky.

Cha Cha Cha!

2009-04-20T20:47:00.004+08:00

Cha Cha Cha!

Some fellow sat on my cha-cha skirt when I was on the train today. Problems with public transport. Tsktsk. But my cha-cha skirt very cute hor! (:

Bought more leggings today! Now I got 2 brown ones, 2 shimmer ones, 1 long black, 1 3/4 black, 1 long grey, 1 3/4 grey. YAY. I think I am crazy. :D

needa replenish my savings!
gonna start working tmr! ):

PANDA:

Life's A Bitch.

2009-04-19T00:38:00.000+08:00

Life's A Bitch.

Isabel: "Since life's a bitch, why not be one too?"
Sabrina: "You are, I'm not."

:) It was half a day out with Isabel Tan for manicure and window shopping. Apparently, 'window shopping' doesn't really exist in Sabrina's world. You should really stop believing if I tell you I got nothing to wear. I did my favourite french manicure and she did her nails like Blair (sorry huh. gossip girl craze.) Please remind us never to do cheap manicures, it's Hollywood Nails next!

Cabbed down to Bugis. Isabel late as usual. Saw Julyana. Bought clothes. Did Manicure. Hear her bitch about everyone. Bought more clothes. Bought a bag. Had VERY FILING dinner at Soup Spoon. Love the wrap. Talked about flings. Confessed about boy-hopping. Hear her bitch about everyone somemore. Chilled. Went home.

She seriously got a problem with staying still and keeping her nails perfect.

tsk tsk.

NICER HAIR!

YAY. I got my 3/4 dresses.

I gonna look so short in them! :D

Should I go swimming tomorrow? I hate public swimming pools. ):

CANDY!

2009-04-17T20:48:00.000+08:00

CANDY!

ADDED:
0) MY BLOGSKIN IS PINK! :D

Sorts:
1) My mum is crazy, she made steamboat at home for no reason.
2) I am reading a book call Bangkok Boy. It's about male prostitution. -shrugs-
3) I am giving the gay stitch to Daws.
4) Adidas has PINK in their candy series. ITS PINK & GOLD! SO CHIO!! I LIKE!!!
5) Nic is such an idiot. He named his pet Sabrina. It's a boy and it's blue.
6) I want to mj mj!7) I am confused.

Possiblities;

2009-04-16T16:40:00.004+08:00

Possibilities;

I am quite a contented girl these few days. Whoever say its hard to please me? (: J's visit, plus one more of his letter came and as expected, he wants me to cut botak like him. Begged me not to "anyhow throw" his heart away (since it's with me) because he wants it back when I leave him and he accused me of having too much fun till I forget about him. Tsk tsk. Now I needa reply both of his letters grrawr!

Watched Fast and Furious 4. Not a fan of Vin Diesel but it was cooool, and theres number 5 coming too! *chants: paul walker paul walker paul walker* I caught a super gay stitch at the arcade in 2 tries. I am so amazing!

ciao. I am still jobless.
-shrugs-

Guilty, but Happy.

2009-04-13T00:40:00.005+08:00

Guilty, but Happy.

It's almost 1am, which means its 13th April and it's my sister's 22nd, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAM. It's the 8th month too. I am supposed to be asleep by now(long pass my sleeping time!!) but I need to get all these done first. It was a busy but happy weekend, filled with shopping, alcohol, steamboat, people whom I want to see and hello kitties!

Isabel filled half of the day. Chinatown, cheap shopping, dessert, DingTaiFeng(again) and many many Cotton On. The most expensive item that I bought for the day was my 3 pair of Levis' underwear, I think? I bought this Pink Sleepwear at $10 which was retailing at $14(?) because I flirted with the 70yr old uncle and told him he was so shuai for the day. I think I won't have much friends left if I stay this cranky shit. I bought many stuffs from Cotton On at $10 each too. OH and we saw Cherie at Heeren which makes both of us damm hyper lol. =)

issy tan cut her hair shorter than mine.

i hope she look like a mushroom.
we like to eat mushrooms. :D

PINK SLEEPWEAR!
look at the sleeve. it's so cute.

The Lunar people took up the night. KimBoon, YiCong, Sean, CTV, Primeman, Beng, Julien, Aileen and I. It was at Conspiracy and very fun because Sabrina is no longer the weakest link who get drunk first. Hiakhiak. CTV was the only one who won me many many times and the rest died? YAY MAN. I think Yicong hates me now because I made him drink non stop, saw TanSiHao(Nic) that day too! :D I MISS THEM MANY MANY!

From left: Primeman, Yicong, KimBoon, Sean & Steven.

On Sunday, Kimmy, Daws, Eric and I went with Birdy to SP to watch her soccer match. Super entertaining because girls playing soccer is like Sabrina cooking, it's better not to put them together you know. Oh well, Birdy's Bishan Arsernal won with a 5-0 score and we went for steamboat at Roxy after. Eric was very nice, he paid for our meal and steamboat is happy. His dog freaked me out and I rode on his mini motorcycle. I am still alive!

Ben gave HelloKitties to Kim and I while chilling.

:D :D :D :D :D

Oh. J's letter came. It made my day, but at the same time make me feel guilty too. Hmm. What to reply him?

All sorts.

2009-04-07T23:57:00.005+08:00

All sorts.

J's granddad passed away sometime ago. I got no idea what I can do to make him feel better. Kimmy and I was at the funeral and woah, TPY feels different. I have never been to most parts of TPY anyhows, maybe just Bradell. Hmm.

I uploaded alot of old photos into my fb's album(click) (from Sakae, IDS, Tanglin and Sorts) and I think I am pissing alot of people off. HAHA! Super old photos and I look like crap in most of them. I am refusing to acknowledge it so I pink-ed some of my faces. Jurong Town Primary School & Tanglin Secondary School. This picture is so scary. Yes, I used to do the chromatic harmonica(click) and I was in the band in both schools. Tsk, the uniform is hideous lor? I am happy to see this though. People inside: Ronald Ng, Lum Yao Lun, Camen Ang, Zhou Ren, Desmond Kwok, Andy Tan, Chen Hui Hui, Valerie Tan, Farah, Juliana Chai, Seek Kim Yeen, Lum Ying Han & a couple of familiar faces. WOW. Am I amazing or what? I remember people with their surname lol!

Half of the 4e3 with Mr Lee Han Seng.

love you guys!

Where are my rings?!

2009-04-04T14:15:00.009+08:00

Where are my rings?!

There will never be one day where Sabrina's stuff don't go missing. My HDD, my PDL, my phone, my qualification certs, my digital camera, ic, even the whole bag! *roll eyes* I remembered I wore this pink ring to dinner at Cafe Cartel with Kimmy, Birdy, Daws and Summer sometime ago. It was on my middle/forth finger, can't remember. I was tidying my fringe and with just a fling, the ring just flew away. Hais. My pink ring. ):

So, I went to buy a red butterfly ring when I was out with KweeGek. Its like Sabrina's theory says that she needs different colour of every item to match her colourful basics but but but it went missing! Grr. My red ring. ):

Random:
My laundry basket!
(:

sometimes i think isabel tan is crazy?
<3

love doesn't walk away, people do.

If You Are Not The One,

2009-04-01T04:18:00.008+08:00

If You Are Not The One,

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

I have to admit Daniel Bedingfield is damm gay but what to do, the lyrics is good. Its like No Promises, gayish and high pitch but meaningful. Expecting Isabel Tan to go yanking about Sabrina being emo and whats with all these youtube postings... I am trying hard to find something significant to blog about too.

CSI took over my life. If I start telling you that blood turns green when excessive sulphur goes into your body, its normal. I still have a life though. *roll eyes* Refusing to work since my savings doesnt seem to be decreasing. The last show I watched was Confessions Of A Shopaholic and the last last show I watched was My Bloody Valentine. Both shows are horrible. The first one made me frown throughout, the second almost took my heart away. I super want to watch Fast and Furious because Paul Walker is very hot and reluctant to let Unborn make me miserable.

I miss tanning with Isabel Tan. =S
I miss those old times.Drunk and red at QB. HAH HAH HAH.Something is not right with this photo.
Is it too edited or what?
Miss those bleaching!
Canto, with Sharon. HAH HAH HAH.
GOLD HAIRRR!!!Those days;
-pouts-
i am like missing everything?

If You Seek Amy- Britney Spears.

2009-03-29T05:53:00.002+08:00

If You Seek Amy- Britney Spears.

Home-Made Food.

2009-03-27T02:30:00.004+08:00

Home-Made Food.

Wednesday was well spent in a healthy way, even though I couldn't stop complaining about it being a Ladies Night. Kimmy, Daws and I made steamboat my place. I went for a TTSH (read: Tan Tock Seng Hospital) interview earlier in the day, I was in all white and I think I look too angelic that's why the van wanted to knock me down. -roll eyes- Daws bought me pretzels when she came, yay pretzels! Groceries shopping, food, shabushabu meat and I had my own pot aka boycotting me because I was such a vegetarian/non chili person?

Nic and Bluetooth came for MJ while Daws slept and Kimmy won $26 from me. I think my skills are deteriorating? I keep losing recently. There's supposed to be an interview at Forum Mall but I ditched it, I have a date with TTSH on friday again and should I go for the interview with ShaSha at Qatar on the next Sunday?

This is from THE KISS (click). It's all in japanese. I don't care if it says marriage, their rings are so pretty, its in pink gold too? wohoo.

empty letterbox!

Life.

2009-03-24T15:55:00.005+08:00

Life.

Sabrina is a VERY indecisive person, if you realise/know. I like my new hair now! :D Isabel says I look like a freaking geisha without make up. Ya, so wth right? We should just ignore her, but I do agree my hair is sooo dark. Maybe Jeremy will dump me since he won't recognise me anymore.

YAY! I look like a punk chick, I need to buy wax!
& there is a pasar malam near my house!

omg i think i need a job?

Short Hair!

2009-03-23T17:42:00.005+08:00

Short Hair!

Sabrina took her long hair away and the only person who will feel happy about this is Jason, I think? Shoulder length. Dark Brown. Weird Puffy Fringe. Damm it. I think I look like a freaking mushroom?

Added: Lets Bet. How long do you think I will resist the temptations of hair extensioning?

*hides in a corner and cry*

J & Batam.

2009-03-20T23:36:00.005+08:00

J & Batam.

19th of March was a busy day. I only managed an hour plus of sleep and had to wake for J's visit, followed by our Batam trip. The father did not appear, (and I was told later in the day that it was his birthday oppps), so I face to face visited J alone. I feel super bad cause I was wishing secretly that the father wouldn't make it so I can talk to J more. Oh well. J was still funny. He refused to read the Twilight I sent until I told him it smells like me. He told me he addressed his previous letter wrongly too. He said it wasn't for me, it was for Bella. Ya lor, he is ditching me for Bella. He wanted me not to lose myself in Batam too, if not will he have to go all the way there to find me man.

BATAM is hard to describe. I wanted to kill myself on the ferry so much, and there was a return trip too. Side note: I did not puke. It was us: Bird, Kimmy, Dawson, WeiWei, Aunty Susan and I. Very exhausting because of the time limit. I spent super alot? Maybe more than a million rupiah. HAHAH. I withdrawed rupiah from my UOB card man. How cool. We went to pray, we shopped, we ate at A&W, we went for massage, we rushed to shopped again and we had seafood. I bought 2 pretty top from Polo, a couple of basics, a nice cheap adidas top for stupid nic and I can't remember where i spend the rest of the money. I just think Batam is such a poisonous place. I had my virgin experience at the massage parlor too. It freaked me out entirely I almost ripped the towel yike. The massage didn't kill me, the traffic and the weather too. I was told that the seafood was very good, it was all too spicy for me. I like overseas trip, it will be so much better without the aunty. =)

Too bad alot of the photos are with Weiwei. He even took a video of me feeling sick on the ferry, that mean. I want to go to Genting for rollercoasters man. =D

Honda? Mitsubishi? Toyota!

2009-03-17T21:22:00.004+08:00

Honda? Mitsubishi? Toyota!

It was my friend's car in his display picture and I tried guessing. It's so Sabrina because her knowledge for cars just suck? Wth does this logo even look like a Honda to you? I thought it was Toyota until i was told man. LMAO.

Kimmy accompanied me to Funan to get my laptop yesterday. Still indecisive, we went everywhere giving problems because I just like backing away last minute. I am afraid I don't make the right decision, you know? Oh, I bought the Fujitsu one at last. Its pretty and I am loving it. Is there really a difference with or without graphic card? It works just well.

We played mj at my place(again). I lost $26 but I am so happy because I almost lost $100. Nic bao-ed me in the end. YAY! MY AHMAD! :D

I'd Rather

2009-03-16T01:03:00.008+08:00

I'd Rather.

I heard a song on Bird's car that day, Kimmy's favourite song. It's an old song, and it's nice. I just don't like the lyrics. I don't see two timing being forgivable, but yet I believe it will be me one day. How ironic is that? Tore between choices. Choices that seem...... unfair. Is it because I am too greedy?

I was at the IT show. It was very packed and I didn't manage to get anything due to my indecisiveness. Dawsy and I had a fun time driving the promoters insane but still we didn't manage to find out how unstable DDR3 is. I am tempted to get a Pink Vaio($2k) because of the 320gb size, the pink keyboard, runs on 4gb DDR2 and has a graphic card. I had another Pink Fujitsu choice($1.6k) which is 250gb in size, white keyboard, runs on 3gb DDR3 and no graphic card. Oh god. Do I need a graphic card anyway? Should I save the money and make myself less happy? ): OH WELL, AT LEAST SABRINA TALKS LIKE SHE SELLS LAPTOP. YAYNESS.

SONY:
FUJITSU:

Birdy, Kimmy, Dawsy, WeiWei, SzeKuan and I went for ZhenFa's steamboat at Novena after. It was so fun because I spent my time flirting with this not very good looking waiter and he gave me 5 packets of tissues for free. CHEAP THRILLS YAY! Food was good but they only had china cabbages. Quail eggs makes me happppy too! [:

*side note: i won $60 from mj that day! :D*

I NEEDA NEW LAPTOP!

I want to eat Happy Meal.

2009-03-13T00:00:00.002+08:00

I want to eat Happy Meal.

It's the 13th again, and it have been 7 months.

been 153days since you left.

Are you sure this is Phuture?

2009-03-12T13:53:00.015+08:00

Are you sure this is Phuture?

TanYingXian(the bimbo) and I(the bimbo too) was out on wednesday, with dinner & Phuture plans. We ate like omgodzilla 3 meals: Pretzels, Sakae Teppanyaki and ToastBox. And I had a fat hotdog from the Zouk Booth at the end of the day. Talk about slimming down tsk. I don't remember us shaking off much fats because there is a massive problem with the current Phuture now. Are you very sure this is the Phuture that I loved so much? Whats with all the mambo jumbo and trance-y music? And all those crazy desperate guys who are in need of a hole? Omg. Will someone please slap me so I will stop living in denial? No more Phuture on Wednesday night, TYVM.

Not that JunDa will see this, but J is for JunDa too! You know I really do miss you. P.S You were so under-dressed for Zouk. =X

YAY. Me love teppan & Issy Tan many many.

I want to create my own happiness too.

2009-03-09T23:01:00.006+08:00

I want to create my own happiness too.

YAY! Sabrina is a very happy girl (for the time being) because her life is filled with friends, loved ones, mahjong and xiaolongbao. It was town, town, mahjong, town. It will be mahjong, town, phuture, interview, drinking, mum's birthday. YAY. I am a busy retiree. Please ask me out and make me busy so I got an excuse to not find a job. :D

Side note: Jake, the ex boyfriend, paid us/me. Kimmy, Birdy, Dawsy, YINGXIAN, 6 DA. Please come forward and claim your free dinner. Don't you guys love me? <3

I brought KweeGek, my-most-sane-best-bud-cum-lover, to DingTaiFeng for dinner today. Both of us was so cranky today, or maybe it was only me. I almost drove Gek crazy, leaving her with heart attack today lol. I asked the Lester looking guy why KweeGek got 50% discount and I don't. I asked the NUM guy what's the need of having designs on the flipflops when we are going to step on it. I asked the guy in Agnes B to take out the rubbish(stuffing) in the bag. I asked KweeGek what will happen if i put my finger into the giapgiap connection on the train, and it hurt because I put my finger in (and she couldn't stop laughing). I went "oh shit. where is my phone" like godzillion times. Aye, i think its post handphone-almost-kenna-stolen syndrome, all cause by the Emo-Stitch.

HI KWEEGEK!

Vegetables & XiaoLongBaos.
<3

Yay! New bag from Agnes B.

[:

I am so human now! I sleep at 11pm!

Hello, Kitty.

2009-03-06T20:15:00.009+08:00

Hello, Kitty.

There was supposed to be a meet-up between Kimmy, Dawson and I but it was unsuccessful so I met up with another friend (who doesn't wish to be mentioned) instead. Weird, why the secrecy? I don't think your girlfriend reads my blog anyway. =S

You bought me a gift and forgot to remove the tag.
You made me a crane, took it back and gave it to the girl in Forever 21!
You forced 5 meals down me in 2 hours.
You ditched your bike because I wanted to wear a dress.
You queued to help me buy 4d. :D
You promised to learn mj by year 2010. lol.

TYVM for the Kitty.
I like it alot. [:

There was supposed to be mahjong too! We just don't have enough legs to. ):

"We make our own Fairytale."

2009-03-02T16:17:00.006+08:00

"We make our own Fairytale"

-as quoted from Kim. I thought it made so much sense. It's so weird, I seriously think there's a problem with me. Being the ever so indecisive, strong headed, confused, fussy & hard to please Sabrina is really BAD. Will I even get a role in the fairytale? ):

I went to the Zoo, Zoo, Zoo and I got totally none of the pictures from there, not that we took alot that is. Uhm, I would say it was a tiring but fulfilling day. It was with Bird, Kim, Dawson, Tatoo and Fiona. It had to end early, like 5pm, due to the downpour. We smelt so bad after everything. :D All of them came over to Yishun for some MJ(won 10bucks!) before our steamboat supper. It was all happppppppy. [: Lesson 1 learnt: Elephants doesn't take chilli, and get to do pedicures weekly. I want to be an elephant. Lesson 2 learnt: Cook hard boil egg with boiling water.

I look strangely funny but what ever it is, all photo are at Kim's.

I just came back from CPC (read: Changi Prison Complex), from J's visit. He's all cute and botak now. I gonna send him Twilight to torture him on the next visit. He went crazy knowing I would rather marry Edward than him.

YAY! I am seeing Kimmy later/again!

J for Jeremy.

2009-02-26T22:47:00.007+08:00

J for Jeremy.

tmd chao turtle (lol!)
results of being lazy.
2400 msgs is kinda getting out of hand.
should i take my extensions away? =S

It Rained.

2009-02-25T21:51:00.007+08:00

It Rained.

Just because I am so damm poor, I had to deposit the bloody coins into my bank. There was $120 of 20cents and so much of the rest, how heavy do you think it will be? I am like all of you alright, I am surviving on my own, so please stop borrowing money from me. I am not an ATM. I want to save more $ so I can buy my own car, buy my own house and raise my own childrens. I am not crazy, just cranky yo. TYVM. $_$

my hamburger face:

Don't bother about this video if you are a kentang. It's a chinese song.
Some emo shit & I am not a kentang. :D

YAY. I love my pink umbrella.

Prawnies.

2009-02-24T04:04:00.002+08:00

Prawnies.

Was out with Kimkim, Birdy and Dawson at farmway 2 for prawning session(again). Obviously the prawns didn't like me because I will never succeed in catching them. Either they are brainless or I am. It was a pretty fun day. Me love prawnies many many and Sabrina-never-stone totally owned Melvin-the-stoner in fiveten/direction/cards/scissorspaperstone till he koed in his secret hideout. Lesson learnt: never play games with (ex)boat quay waitresses. YAY!

Dawson couldn't join us in mj so Irwin came over to my house instead. I lost $15 to Blackbirdy. I think it only makes up 1/10 of her earnings siol. ): It was such a fun day with all of them. If only Kim and I doesn't have to work, so we can hang out more often. Like high tea, shopping and looking after childrens. The tai-tai life, you know? :D

YEA. And thanks Billy for rather spending the $56 on your tattoo than returning it to me. That makes me $56 poorer. ):

Brother.

2009-02-22T17:43:00.007+08:00

Brother.

Kimmy dear and I met up for WenQuan's chalet. There wasn't much people there, not like those typical filled with alcohol kind of party. We ate like little princesses, waiting for the crabmeat to be served right up to us. We played banluck, and we didnt pay. We went to prawn for free. Prawnies was nice, prawning wasn't.

WenQuan look so much like brother and it felt so wrong. The more soft spoken, the more talkative and the more sensitive brother. Brother without the rest isn't right.

It's all weird with the black hair. Kimmy says she can't find me. Jason doesn't seem to like them. KweeGek says its not me anymore. And why on earth do I look like Ruien? -shrugs-

now i don't know, now i don't know
if i'm ever really gonna let you go

Bleak & Black.

2009-02-21T04:53:00.004+08:00

Bleak & Black.

I can't promise to blog regularly because I am sucha lazy bitch. I will still try to maintain this pretty blog of mine though. There are too much stuffs in my life that can't be exposed; if ever you are interested, you may dig yo. :D

This is the new black hair. According to MISS ISABEL TAN, I look kinda abused & I used too much concealer & I look too stunned & whatsoever. She's too hard to puuleeease, just like me. <3

I hope I am seeing my Kimmy later. I miss her too much.